Life is Messy

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For as long as I can remember, I  have reevaluated my life twice a year. New Year’s Day and my birthday. My New Year’s resolutions are like most people’s, lose weight, work out more etc… Sometimes I even keep them. One of my favorites was to do something cultural once a month  a few years ago. This led me to becoming a member  the Metropolitan Museum of Art and seeing dozens of great plays musicals and other types of theater experiences. It has now become a regular  part of my life.

My birthday resolutions are a little  different. They are more about personal growth and spirituality.  I look at where I am in my life and if I am where I want to be at this age. Do I need to realign? I see what I don’t like and try to change it.  Like a tune up. I also add to my bucket lists. Last year when I turned 49, I  realized there were certain aspects of my life that needed improvement and wasn’t really happy about that.  I made promise I would not turn  50 unhappy.  I turned 50 yesterday  and it was a good day. A friend came in for the weekend and we had a blast. We laughed most of the weekend. It was needed. As far as my resolution though, let’s just say I am no better off and because of the loss of my mom I am worse off. Sometimes that happens. The best laid plans etc…..It doesn’t mean we give up. We just pause, take a few deep breaths, regroup and move forward. Control what we can and leave the rest up to God. Easy Right?  So…. happy and healthy at 51 is the new goal. How to do that? That will be something I will be exploring over the next year… or 50….

I do know that I will endeavor to be fabulous at 50, explore new things, meet new people and to make it a great year!!  I want it to be a year of freedom, fearlessness and fabulosity!